Friday, November 21, 2008

Personal Meditation: Unnecessary Pain


The dress was a dark, muted navy blue. It fit well and it was a nice price and so it was rung up, bought and wrapped up in the hopes of only having to be worn once. No, it wasn't a wedding dress and no, it's way too late for the prom. Way too late.

Growing up as an overweight female, to be blunt, is painful. PAINFUL. Losing that weight as an adult is thrilling, exhilarating, motivating, and...well, painful. One is always watching, watching, watching, from what others are eating and how much, to that extra ounce of fat that suddenly appears on ones once svelte stomach, to the ever punishing bathroom scale. Where will that arrow land? See, watching, always watching.

The worst thing that can happen to a once overweight girl is to lose that weight and then gain some of it back. When you lose a lot of weight everyone comments on it, from your best friends mother to your second cousins boyfriend, to the grocery store clerk at the local Whole Foods. I'm not kidding. It's one of those things that people feel like it's still okay to point out. As if they're doing you a favor by acknowledging your weight loss.

"Oh, look at you! You look great! WONDERFUL! WOW! Don't go losing too much weight now, or we'll hardly see ya! Ha, I'm kidding...keep it up!"

Okay, yeah, thanks.

So, what happens if one, say goes to graduate school? It's stressful. Sitting in cafes on ones laptop becomes a full time occupation. Weight is gradually gained and then more weight.

Hypothetically, what happens when you run into your best friends mom? Or not so hypothetically, perhaps you are asked to open the Ark and present the Torah at your cousin's daughter's Bat Mitzvah, in front of 200 people including all of your distant relatives of whom haven't seen you since your grandmother's funeral where instead of apologizing for your loss they congratulated you on that other loss, the weight loss, raving about how great you looked in that size 4, black dress!

How might that feel? Hmmm?

Maybe one runs down to the nearest clothing store, grabs the first thing she sees, tries it on, buys it, and hopes to never, ever wear it again. See, painful.

And the moral is? Don't comment on people's weight, lost or gained? Who cares about the size of ones waist when one is increasing the size of ones mind? Don't ever be fat in American society or one will surely regret it for the rest of ones life? Tempting, but...no.

The moral of this story, if there really is one, is to never, ever, agree to be participant in a Bat Mitzvah after the age of 13.

Find That Feature Lead

Anecdotal/Narrative Lead:

"A short time ago, in honor of the impending holiday season and the looming depression, I settled in for a viewing of “It’s a Wonderful Life.” I watched it on the same laptop on which I’m writing these words, with headphones plugged in to filter out distraction, though from time to time I did shrink the image so I could check my e-mail or my favorite blogs."

A.O. Scott
The Screening of America
New York Times Magazine

Direct Address Lead:

"By this point you've probably already listened to, and made up your mind about, "Chinese Democracy," the maledicted multi-million-dollar Axl Rose entitlement program on sale Sunday at a Best Buy near you, and currently available for streaming on Guns N' Roses' MySpace page."

Allison Stewart
Guns N' Roses' Inflated 'Chinese Democracy'
The Axl Rose Ego Trip Album Might Have Benefited From Adult Supervision
The Washington Post

Focus Structure

High school football is a dangerous game. There are 20,000 injuries in high school football each year and 12% of them permanently disable the victims.

Just ask Pete Stenhoff, 17, who played football for Chula Vista High School in Redmond, Calif. He suffered a cracked vertebrae when his head rammed into a ball carrier's chest. Stenhoff will never walk again.

Last year, thirteen youths died and 35% of the injuries were to the neck or head. Heavy criticism is being levied at the helmet.

At the time of the accident, Stenhoff weighed 210 pounds; now he weighs 172 pounds. He didn't graduate with his class and he's currently trying to get his diploma by taking correspondence courses. But Stenhoff is not bitter.

"I knew the risks involved when I decided to play football," Stenhoff says, but he adds wistfully, "I wish I would have known just how bad it could be."

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Topical Commentary: The Wrong Side of History


When listening to the angry and passionate banter from people who are opposed to gay marriage, the words "on the wrong side of history" keep playing over and over in my mind.

Here have a listen:

"It is evident that Adam and Eve were created straight. God's chosen nation Israel was straight. Jesus was straight."

"Intermarriage between two men is repulsive and averse to every sentiment of pure American spirit...It is subversive of social peace. It is destructive of moral supremacy..."

Oh wait, I'm sorry, those were the statements from people against interracial marriage from the last century. I just took the word "white" and replaced it with "straight" and the word "races" with the word "men".

Here are the current statements against equal marriage rights:

“I support Proposition 8 because I'm convinced that the traditional definition of marriage as between one man and one woman is God’s design...It’s for our children’s future. It’s for the truth. We're not just fighting a state legislative battle here. We're fighting to preserve God's design for the family as the best building block of society. It's as basic as that.”

"The Church’s teachings and position on this moral issue are unequivocal. Marriage between a man and a woman is ordained of God, and the formation of families is central to the Creator’s plan for His children. Children are entitled to be born within this bond of marriage."

"I believe homosexual acts between two individuals are immoral and that we should not condone immoral acts."

Gay marriage is "the greatest danger to America."

Read it, okay, now read it again and imagine yourself in the year 2057. Go ahead, close your eyes. Oooh look at all of those Jetson's-like vehicles whizzing by. Are you wearing a space suit and helmet or did President Obama finally make permanent those clean air laws that her husband enacted in his third term? Anyhow, go to the library, that's right just flip the "on" switch on your earpodtm and think "library". Okay now think "misceresex laws". What do you hear? Oh man were people in 2008 ignorant. What idiotic bigots! Don't they know that without equal rights for gays and lesbians we wouldn't have our beloved current president Satya Patwardhan, whose parents were one of the first to get married in San Francisco in '04?

Okay, come back now. Come on, I know worm holes into other dimensions are exhilarating, but we have a lot of work to do back in good old 2008.

My Favorite Magazine



I have been an avid reader of Bitch magazine since I was a freshman, excuse me, a freshwomen at Mills College in 1996 when they put out their inaugural issue. Before Bitch, I had been crying my eyes out over the demise of Sassy, a teen magazine that I had been reading religiously since the summer after 6th grade. Sassy spoke bluntly about teen sex, drugs, and issues of race and gender and contained offers like "win a free 7" single by Sonic Youth". In other words, it was sooo much cooler than the still stuck in 1955, ironically titled YM (Young and Modern) or the anorexia inducing Seventeen.

Bitch was started by two former Sassy interns who specifically wanted to make a magazine that "Sassy girls" could read as adults. As the tag line states, the focus of the magazine was to create "A feminist response to pop-culture" and to provide a forum for feminist opinion across the spectrum. Because the types of authors vary from issue to issue, the writing style is not static. Although, many might call the magazine academic in its approach to pop culture writing.

http://bitchmagazine.org/

Saturday, November 8, 2008

The Fog Index

SAMPLE: 117 words


"Following closely on the tail of Hurricane Gustav, which wrecked havoc on the island nation of Cuba less than two weeks ago, Hurricane Ike slammed into the coasts of Texas and Louisiana early this morning. With millions without power and massive flooding throughout the Houston area, the storm system, which is more than 200 miles wide, is continuing across the Gulf Coast and is supposed to move into Arkansas by nightfall. Early reports from authorities are saying that Hurricane Ike will be the most devastating storm in 25 years since Hurricane Alicia hit the Gulf Coast in 1983. So far the estimated damages and loss of life is unknown, but both are expected to be high."

Average number of words per sentence: 26

Number of "hard words": 6

26+6=32(0.4)=12.8

Okay maybe I'll take back that last post...I guess I'm a bit too wordy, eh? I love big, beautiful words. I also love to learn new words and I use my writing as way to increase my own vocabulary. But I suppose I could certainly write shorter sentences!


Got What It Takes To Be A Reporter?

Wow! My mom always wanted me to become a reporter. She would LOVE to see this! My total score was 29, I can't always keep my cool under pressure without losing my temper, okay it's true.
But I love reading and absorbing information, I love trivia and inane and not so inane facts. I am certainly NOT shy, I have an insatiable curiosity and I am extremely tenacious, just ask my partner it drives him crazy.

ELECTION

Okay, so the question is...how many times will I cry while writing this and looking at this picture?

I voted early on the Wednesday before the election. I made my way down to the Alameda County Court House in downtown Oakland and stood in the long, snaking line with the other exuberant folks and cast my ballot for Barack Obama. This was my fourth time voting in a presidential election. I also drew a big, black arrow to "NO" on prop 8, but I guess that arrow didn't reach far enough and we were defeated.

I was awoken by my friends piercing alarm at 4:15 a.m. the morning of the election. Groaning and cursing but bubbling with excitement, we struggled out of our beds and to the campaign office in a quiet outlying neighborhood of Las Vegas, Nevada. For the fifth day in a row, we walked our turf, going from apartment complex to housing project, from door to door, reminding people to vote and giving out their polling places.

There are so many stories to tell. There are a lot of night shifts in Las Vegas. Folks work all night in the service industry and come home tired and cranky in the wee hours of the morning. I awoke many of these day sleepers, rapping on their flimsy apartment doors. They would come to the door blurry-eyed, hair tousled, a frown on their lips. But the moment I said "Obama" a tiny smile would creep up in the corners of their mouths until it was apparent by the crinkle next to their eyes and the sudden flash of teeth that they just couldn't help themselves, the thought of voting for Barack Obama was just too exciting.


These were mostly people of color, Latinos and Blacks living with extended families in large apartment complexes. But they were also white, working class men that came to the door tattooed and shirtless, gold crosses hanging from their necks. One such man ran back into his house for pen and paper the moment I mentioned voting for Obama and returned gleefully, almost giddy at the prospect of voting for such a person.

This amazed me. Living in the Bay Area we some times forget that we don't have the patent on the word "liberal". We forget that there are many types of progressives living outside of our great bubble, people who might not look like us or act like us but share our values. This was a great wake-up call for me, to see these men and women of all ages, sizes, colors, and class have the same pride and sense of achievement at the prospect of voting for this candidate.

As the sun settled over the pink and purple dessert, we made our way back to my brother's apartment, put up our feet and switched on MSNBC. Yeah, I know, total liberal bias...and it was great. We listened as the results started pouring in from the east cost. We switched to CNN and then even FOX News, just to make sure that our information was "fair and balanced". I was disappointed but not surprised that the media started calling the election before all of the polls had closed. This is always a problem in national elections and it usually costs Democrats, but not this time.


We moved on to the Nevada State Democratic party at the Rio hotel in central Las Vegas. If you go back and look at the footage of election night on MSNBC you'll see us. One of many large, roaring crowds, drunk with the prospect of victory and, well the alcohol that circled the room. A large screen with MSNBC was front and center over the stage and many big screen televisions dotted the room. Just as some unknown representative of the party was telling us that the room had reached capacity and that if we needed the bathroom to please use one of the side doors, MSNBC announced that Barack Obama had gained more than enough electoral votes necessary to declare him the next president of the United States. We screamed and roared and whooped. It was a deafening sound that was repeated on all the screens around us all over the country and the world. One newscast showed the village in Kenya where Obama's father was from and we whooped and screamed and danced with the figures on the screen.

Moments later I found myself in front of the only TV in the room broadcasting FOX News. They announced Obama's victory and then went straight to a ten minute commercial for Nicole Kidman's new film, "Australia". Maybe that's where they wished they could be at the moment. Later, when they returned and after John McCain had given his concession speech, they spent the rest of the broadcast arguing over whether Sarah Palin had lost McCain the election or not. At that point we turned our attention away from them and to Barack Obama's acceptance speech.

Two women were with my brother and I as we watched that speech. Both were black and one was in her forties while the other in her late sixties. After, with tear streaked cheeks, the older of the two turned to us and said, to no one in particular, "they have to treat me differently tomorrow, they will treat me differently tomorrow, because tomorrow, when I march into work, I will have a black president and they will have to see me differently".


I have now gone back to Youtube and watched many different broadcasts of that night. I know, overkill. My favorite is John Stewart and Stephen Colbert teaming up for the Daily Show. Twelve times I have played the part in the show where John Stewart announces that Barack Obama has been elected as the next president of the United States. If one watches very carefully, you will see the moment that Stephen Colbert breaks character and his eyes mist a bit right before he goes back into his Republican, Bill O'Reilly persona...and I was crying with ya Stephen, all twelve times, I was crying with you.